So guys!

I'm going to lock all of my fics from now on. I've thought long and hard about this. And I've decided to lock them. For just my friends of corse so If you come across this and want to read them you'll have to comment here to be added. And not just hey I wanna read your fics! I would like some info about you ^^ Like
Name you go by:
An interesting fact about yourself:
Oh and twitter/tumblr:
And Where In the world is your general location:
My introduction:
Name you go by: Click, Britt, or Neko
Age: 21
Bias/OTP: Hyukjae! ZhouHyuk
An interesting fact about yourself: I'm a swimmer, I draw and I'm a nursing student
Oh and twitter/tumblr: twitter- EunNightingale tumblr- BeautifulxAbyss
And Where In the world is your general location: Texas :)


I don't know what to do...

I have been in what I thought was a perfect and loving relationship for the last 8 years. We have been married for three years and our little girl is 2.

We began having problems about 7 months ago. I actually caught him talking to an ex. He told her that he loved her and felt like a single parent. I work long hours and he takes care of the little one most of the time. He said he didn't mean it and he wasn't in the right head space at the time.

So, we've gone to therapy.. but he told me that he wants to get attention from other people. I don't know what that means. I don't know if I even want to know. He never wears his ring, he never tells me he loves me. We don't get close to each other because I work with Covid patients and I don't want to risk it. I wear a mask all of the time, so we don't kiss but he doesn't even hold my hand.

I really, really want this to work but I don't know how. I don't want my baby to grow up in a split house. I also still love him so much it breaks my heart. I just don't know what to do anymore.


I am so flipping nervous

So... I don't even remember when I last made an entry on here... But I sadly have stopped writing for now.

Update on what is my life:
I'm engaged! Yay!
I passed nursing school (yay) and unfortunately did not pass my first try on my NCLEX... And I got so depressed. I quit my job and gave up. My fiancé was amazing. He stuck through the depression. He kept me alive.
So after a few months I woke up one day and had a wake up call. I gotta get back to it! So I got a job at a nursing home (worst decision of my life) worst 6 months! And I got back into studying.
So long story short (about the nursing home) I put in my two weeks and applied for a job at another hospital! I got the intern position! But not really because I'm still treated like a CNA... But I do get to start IVs, Foley's, NG tubes, and occasionally hang IV bags! The only draw back is that its a night position... I like it but I spend less time with my fiancé... Boo!
So I took my NCLEX again last Thursday. I was so nervous!! Omg! I could hardly eat!! After I was better though... And there is a quick results I can buy to see if I passed or not, but that tales 48 business hours to tell you... At 1:30 today will be my 48 business hours... I didn't want to tell anyone but my fiancé about it but I ended up telling my mom... And she just texted me to see if I passed or not... The butterflies are back... Its almost 10am and I can't get to sleep... I need to go to bed v.v if I don't I won't be able to get up when my fiancé gets home... I need to I promised to cool...

I just don't know what to do if I don't pass again... I think I would just die... Well here's hoping I pass!

Hey guys

So for now I've opened most of my fics (all but the chaptered ones and one personal one. (They are marked)

I would still like it if anyone reads them and likes them to comment and tell me what they think about them (good or bad) and if you really like some or most of them to go ahead and comment of my intro post to add me as a friend! You have to comment on that post and add me before I accept you though ^^

The locked fics are friends only also, so if you want to read them add me! (Unless my friend that doesn't have an LJ tells me she wants to read them. That's the only way they will be unlocked.)

I would link to my intro post but I'm on my phone right now and don't want to try to fight with it to make the hyperlink. It's easy to go to my intro post because its the first on on my LJ!

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Title: ...
Rating/Warning: pg-13
Parings: JongLo, BangDae, HimJae
Word Count: 4,821
Disclaimer: I own the characters not the plot! Wait... that's backwards!
Summary: New school new friends. WIll Jongup be acceped here when people find out about his... differences.

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Title: Visual
Rating/Warning: R/angst, maybe character death you decided. open ending
Parings: hinted DaeChan
Word Count: Word says 1,063
Disclaimer: I own the characters not the plot! Wait... that's backwards!
Summary: he was supposed to be the visual... but he was mocked for it.

A/N: Will be locked in 48-72 hours~

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Title: Going crazy
Rating/Warning: R/angst, murder
Parings: BangHim Onesided Bang/Jieun
Word Count: Word says 870
Disclaimer: I own the characters not the plot! Wait... that's backwards!
Summary: Jieun likes Yongguk but Himchan is in the way. She does the only thing she can think of to permanently get rid of him.

A/N: Will be locked in 48 hours~

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